Just a quick note...
...to let you all know why I haven't been blogging for the past couple weeks.
After many years of fighting with illness, and multiple organ failures, my mother passed away peacefully last Tuesday night.
I'm doing ok, overall, but haven't had much motivation to write. Everything is still very surreal to me. I'm not sure when I will resume writing in earnest, or if I will comlplete the 100 Days to Offload this year. I'm also not sure if I will participate in Writing Month at all this year. (But I don't anticipate a terribly long hiatus, in either case).
I'm currently combing through over 200,000 photos stored haphazardly on an old backup disk (along with some duplicates, which I'm attempting to identify with md5sum) to collect photos of my mom for her upcoming Celebration of Life.
I've noticed one theme over and over again:
She's not looking at the camera maybe a quarter of the time. She was often looking to the side, at others.
The reason?
She was always more interested in making sure everyone else was happy and having a good time than looking pretty for her own photos.
Selah.
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Video clip
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